Battle cries

I feel so incredibly Panicked, of late. I am eating a little more now, which is supposedly a good thing, but I can't really sleep and I keep dreaming about ants. Is that normal? Ants - who'd have thought!

Panic aside, I have fallen down a staircase, made friends with another Korean Boy (though this one was raised in Texas - minus the accent, thank goodness) and learned the dance to Wonder girl's "So Hot". Christina, my dear Italian friend, asked me if I kissed the American-KB in the end of that evening out but I was puzzled. How do you flirt with someone by asking advice on how to get on with a completely different boy? Especially if you do it many times, moaning over how perfect this Other Boy is - my imagination runs away with me after a drink or two and I get overly enthusiastic.

Europe, however, is still on, it seems.

Today is a Monday and I am trying to relax by the means of drinking and mumbling "哪里有彩虹告诉我~能不能把我的愿望还给我。。。" in an overly dramatic way because that is what I do. I have come to cherish the weekdays and my classes, anxious not to be alone over the weekends. I have been so nervous lately, I don't want to leave myself alone with, you know, myself. It could get claustrophobic, especially if Theodore is with me. The first week of October I have off, and I am, for the first time in my life, unhappy about the upcoming holidays.

There's something clawing at me and I have been fine for so long, it's not fair! Perhaps I am just too Happy for my own good. Is that possible? Perhaps not. I shouldn't think so much, Theodore, go away!

Oh, I met the most handsome Chinese boy you can imagine at a BBQ party the other night and thought him truly Perfect, until he opened his mouth. Not only was he from Chicago, he was a model/actor too, and shook my hand with both of his. "You see, I'm an actor. Here's my card." Suffice to say, he lost me at that, and I ended up more interested in the meat on the grill than that which he had to offer.

Chinese of the day:
"我喜欢你很久了！"
I have liked you for so long!
(from 恶魔在身边)