抛弃了

Except you’ve got that look in your eyes
When I’m telling a story and you find it boring
You’re thinking of something to say

Korean Friends

I have added another Korean Friend to the list - this one is actually in my class. He teaches me Korean, too, and I he has promised to take me out for drinks after Monday (when it's going to Happen), no matter if I need to celebrate or cry my eyes out. He said he's available either way and will pay for my drinks until my body breaks. He's a sweetheart :)

Tomorrow is a Saturday but I have school over the weekend so this is sleep. I have ugly sheets and greasy hair, but I managed to smile for the camera nonetheless! Or perhaps I am yawning - I am tired and can't quite tell the difference... I take full blame if you are frigtened by my make-up free apperance.

Marie goes to South America tomorrow. I wish it was February already.



Chinese of the day:
紧张
Nervous

如果爱只是拉拉扯扯...

And so this is where I refuse to admit that I cried for something I haven't lost. Not yet.

Chinese of the day:
敏感
Sensitive

Battle cries

I feel so incredibly Panicked, of late. I am eating a little more now, which is supposedly a good thing, but I can't really sleep and I keep dreaming about ants. Is that normal? Ants - who'd have thought!

Panic aside, I have fallen down a staircase, made friends with another Korean Boy (though this one was raised in Texas - minus the accent, thank goodness) and learned the dance to Wonder girl's "So Hot". Christina, my dear Italian friend, asked me if I kissed the American-KB in the end of that evening out but I was puzzled. How do you flirt with someone by asking advice on how to get on with a completely different boy? Especially if you do it many times, moaning over how perfect this Other Boy is - my imagination runs away with me after a drink or two and I get overly enthusiastic.

Europe, however, is still on, it seems.

Today is a Monday and I am trying to relax by the means of drinking and mumbling "哪里有彩虹告诉我~能不能把我的愿望还给我。。。" in an overly dramatic way because that is what I do. I have come to cherish the weekdays and my classes, anxious not to be alone over the weekends. I have been so nervous lately, I don't want to leave myself alone with, you know, myself. It could get claustrophobic, especially if Theodore is with me. The first week of October I have off, and I am, for the first time in my life, unhappy about the upcoming holidays.

There's something clawing at me and I have been fine for so long, it's not fair! Perhaps I am just too Happy for my own good. Is that possible? Perhaps not. I shouldn't think so much, Theodore, go away!

Oh, I met the most handsome Chinese boy you can imagine at a BBQ party the other night and thought him truly Perfect, until he opened his mouth. Not only was he from Chicago, he was a model/actor too, and shook my hand with both of his. "You see, I'm an actor. Here's my card." Suffice to say, he lost me at that, and I ended up more interested in the meat on the grill than that which he had to offer.

Chinese of the day:
"我喜欢你很久了！"
I have liked you for so long!
(from 恶魔在身边)

Confusion? Agreed!

I was in my first Beijing sandstorm yesterday and while it left me partically blind and with a rather coarse taste on my tongue - but I survived it! We were supposed to grill some meat but the skies fell down with thunder so there was not a lot of action last night. However, we had sausage omelettes with chili in baguettes... I haven't been eating well lately, I keep forgetting and I am never hungry.

I had coffee with Korean Boy yesterday, it was nice. He was babysitting his students, though, and I am pretty sure they don't like me because they fell asleep at the table while KB and I was talking. Poor little things. Anyway, KB and I talked about Europe and he's making plans to come with me in February when I go back to Sweden. A little sudden, no? Why, I'm all in! We're going to have to save money, for we want London, Paris, Geneva and Milan as well. In the end, I'm sure he'll chicken out on me but it's a nice thought to entertain.

In other news, I have been watching Monk all morning and I think it's time I left the house, perhaps for food. It's sunny, today.

Chinese of the day:
"牵手"
To hold hands

对不起~我有大舌头。。。

C: You never told me why you want to learn English.
KB: So that I can talk to you.
C: But we can speak Chinese! I don't mind speaking Chinese with you.
KB: Yes, but what if I go back to Korea. I will have to use English to talk on the computer.
C: Do you have a lot of people that you speak English with online?
KB: No. Just you.

Chapter One

Enough with the visa shit already - it was a long trial but it is over and I'd rather not ever think of it again. I managed to get back to Beijing eventually and registered at school as supposed to, the placement exams are tomorrow. But there are more important things to talk about.

Kathy called me this morning (and woke me, admittedly). I have missed her so much - she is my Beijing for Christ sake! - and just to hear her voice made everything brighter. And I had barely put the phone back onto the floor before it rang again and Korean Boy asked in an overly cheery voice if I was awake. I was, of course, and I ran into the bathroom for a shower quicker than Theodore says Poppycock.

When having a date with Korean Boy, it's important to look Nice. I spent ten minutes trying to Look Nice with the means of make up before I realised that there was no point and that a blue flower would do the job for me. Today, this was it, no more experiments with eyeshadow in daylight!



I actually managed to pay lunch for the both of us (Pride!) and learned a little more Korean - I can say that I am tired and that hey, you're an idiot. I am making progress. Korean Boy hired me as his English teacher but I have warned him that it's going to cost him (money? no, that is not at all what I had in mind. I am Decent!).

The first phrase he wanted to have translated was 每天晚上给我打电话, so I did. Call me every night. That's today's Chinese lesson for you: Call me every night!

Then, of course, we had to go shopping because he is Korean and there is little to be done about that. Underwear - imagine that, he took me shopping for underwear! I feel we are doing this in the wrong order.

But Kathy! Kathy Kathy 明娜我想死你了！I'll be better with the emails, I swear!